You're constantly at the corner of my eye.
It annoys me because I don't know why.
I look around it's always you I see.
Even when I don't want to, I do it unconsciously.
SeafoamI think that perhaps I will live life alone
And die silent and soft in my vagabond home
Outlive the people who still know my name
And through my departure, leave earth just the same
I'll leave no one behind me to cry in the night
I'll leave no great sorrow or absence of light
But if I end up leaving someone behind
And I sleep, uninvited in thoughts in your mind
I have no great wisdom to banish your sorrow
No special thoughts for a brighter tomorrow
But please, dear friend, if you find yourself able
Don't strap me down to a cold metal table
Don't paint my face or polish my nails
Or set me up in a box and peer in through the rails
Just wrap me in cotton and rock me to sleep
And lower me into the billowing deep
Don't let me rot in a box in a grave
I want to dissolve into seafoam and waves
I'm happy to dieSomeone once told me
That I was the sun.
I shone oh so brightly
But now that's all all gone.
I've tried to be happy
But some things don't change.
I just feel more crappy
The more that I stay.
So I'm gonna leave,
No time for good-bye.
So fuck all you bitches!
I'm happy to die.
TimeIf time had stood still
before our last goodbye
then we could be together still,
still by each other´s side.
I would tell you all the things,
I´ve longed so much to tell you.
We`d take each other by the hand
our precious love would continue.
They say time is a healer
but time itself won´t tell,
if broken hearts can ever heal,
when missing you is hell.
The time waits for no man,
it races by each day.
The days alone become lonely years
with nothing left to say.
Accept maybe thank you my love,
I was proud, so proud to be your wife.
Thank you for your amazing love,
the way it influenced my life.
Poetry by Suzanne Karbach. 22nd January 2015
Stand UpYou let them hold you down, with fear,
Their cruel words are all you hear,
And you wont speak up, from where you lay,
If you don't stand up, here you'll stay.
Were both survivors, you and I,
But you'll never be free if you don't try,
I know its easier to stay this way,
But you only have this one chance to break away.
Stand up, stand your ground,
Use the voice you just found,
This is all a game you'll no longer play,
Because if you let them win then you will pay.
They can't hold you down forever,
Use your brain, you're much too clever,
To let them walk all over you,
You're stronger than that, you know its true.
Because you're stronger than you've seemed,
And smarter than they've gleamed,
You're better than them by far,
Stand up, show them who you are.
What If I Can't Forget You?What if I can forget you, and why won't your voice get out of my head?
What do you think about before you
Go to bed?
Is it selfish to ask you think of me?
Or do you really just not care.
I'm ready to just leave these feelings be.
These feeling that are other worldly.. it just isn't fair.
Words cannot express how happy you make me feel.
Even our little talks leave me wanting more.
This is too much to bear too much to deal.
And in the end what are these feelings even for.
To be tossed aside and pushed away.
I can only pray that I'm more to you.
For now my soul will continue to pay
For falling in love with you.
MonsterThe light that shined in your eyes for me has been darkened forevermore
My mistakes have done more damage than my words can restore.
I wish that I could rewind time and stop myself from causing you pain
You tried so hard for so long to help me, but I threw it all down the drain.
I let one tear become more important than the millions of smiles you had painted upon my face
I took for granted the heart that you trusted me with, a precious thing that nothing can replace.
So tightly to me, did you once cling
And in return I made you feel like your sacrifices didn't mean a thing.
I hate myself for all that I have done
For destroying the heart that could shine brighter than the sun.
I wrapped my hands around it and squeezed until I felt it breaking
All that we had wanted and worked for, I was forsaking.
Had I not become this monster, I would never have to feel lonely
Both now and then, I have loved and wanted you only.
But I only thought of myself and didn't see you losing your smile
Don't CrySoak your hands in blood
From my hearts final flood
After all of my pain
At last it can drain
I’m tired of being alone
But my heart has turned to stone
The doors have been sealed
I will never be healed
I know someday I’ll die
But I hope you won’t cry
You never should have cared
My pain should not be shared
It’s mine to carry
And mine to bury
But its hold was too great
I broke loose too late
Rebuild my hope.I think I lost you..
Gone for more than 3 months, and still missing.
You were always there.
You wrapped up my blade before it reached my skin.
You lifted my frown into a smile.
You pumped fresh blood into my no longer beating heart.
The walls were crimson, the floor sapphire.
Hope was nothing, but a last name.
I was laying down on that cyber hospital bed, recovery slow to come.
Then you walked in with a gust of letters.
You knew me when I was of my last name, you know me as I am with my current.
Or do you?
I want to talk to you so bad.
I want to make crazy plans with you again.
I just want your speech in my inbox.
Just to know you're okay..
Just to know.
You dedicated your life to relighting the fires in the dampened eyes.
You dedicated your life to build the walls that have slowly crumbled.
I dedicated my life to become as great as you..
The world is cold.
It's now colder without you.
I just want one letter..
Just to know you're okay.
Just to know that you aren
Intoxicating AsphyxiationDown and down I go
When I stop
I don’t yet know
Careening toward the abyss
All I know
Has come to this
My soul decays
In the halls
Where no one plays
The silence is suffocating
And the asphyxiation
A feeling I learned to treasure
When I had
Not a hint of pleasure
When I’m gone you’ll carry on
I never will be